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Shine a Light on Your Path

March 17th, 2010 | 1 Comment »

The text below is an excerpt from my recently published book, Perseverance.

This book [Perseverance] is the result of one of my lifelong passions – a desire to help kids with life-threatening illnesses. It started when, as a young child, I became immersed in a world intrinsically different from my own. When I was six, I went with my parents to visit Camp Sunshine, a camp run by their friends. Camp Sunshine was and still is a retreat in Casco, Maine for children with cancer. Even though I had never been through cancer, I began to understand the impact of this disease at a very personal level. During this visit, I had developed a deep connection to children with cancer. Though I didn’t know it, that visit was going to change my life, and redefine my concept of courage forever.

Freed from the fear of rejection by their peers and the isolation of their hospital rooms, at Camp Sunshine children facing cancer could just be “normal” kids. From what they told me, the psychological issues faced by most kids going through cancer treatment were ubiquitous. Returning to the camp eight years later when I was fourteen, I was again overwhelmed by the strength and courage of my peers with cancer.

Returning to my “normal” life at home after the second visit was difficult. I was older, and more aware of the campers’ struggles. That year, I founded Carolyn’s Compassionate Children (CCC), an organization to help children with cancer and other serious illnesses.

CCC began as a pen-pal program connecting children who had cancer with their healthy peers. When I was fifteen, my foundation became a 501(c)(3) non-profit organization. It was a success, but I wanted to do more.

CCC has flourished in the nine [now: 10] years since I founded it. CCC has awarded 100 college scholarships to childhood cancer survivors across the nation. Currently, the mission of CCC is to improve the quality of life for young adult cancer survivors by increasing the opportunity for college access.

At the beginning of my spring semester freshman year at Duke University, I worked with a child in a documentary studies class examining childhood illness. The purpose of the class was to help a child facing cancer document his or her life through photography. Each student in the class was paired with one child.

I was paired with ten-year-old Kadeejah. I visited her at Duke Hospital every day. She smiled regardless of how she felt. She filled the bleakest days with sunshine. She loved to hold my hand. I gave her a teddy bear on her eleventh birthday, St. Patrick’s Day.

And then I watched her slowly slip away from me.

The last time I saw her, she was lying unconscious in the pediatric intensive care unit (PICU) with the teddy bear in her arms. I kissed her on the cheek and said goodbye.

I came to believe that every life has a purpose. Kadeejah and I were brought together for a reason. She taught me the value of now – this moment, today. Kadeejah spent every spare moment creating art. She never tired of these projects and as soon as she finished one creation, she went on to the next. I determined to spread Kadeejah’s passion for life to as many people as I could reach. This book is my first step toward realizing this goal.

… We all have journeys into uncharted territories that we must take alone. But I have learned that we aren’t necessarily alone. No matter how dark the moment, brave souls have already walked the same path. The purpose of this book is to shine a light on the path each of us takes.

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Kadeejah’s beautiful memory and unbelievable courage shine a light for me, allowing me to share these words with you in celebration of Kadeejah’s life, and in particular, Kadeejah’s birthday.

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To watch me read this excerpt from the book, you can see my personal video on Spring.

Please consider making a donation in memory of Kadeejah to support the Kadeejah Moore Memorial Fund. Every dollar counts.

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Information + Inspiration [File 3]

May 19th, 2009 | 13 Comments »

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image via lululemon

Weekly Snippets of Information + Inspiration [File 3]

image via rfrantzdesign on etsy

InformationFiles:

-> Event: BookExpo America [Largest book publishing event in North America occurring in New York City from May 29-May 31. I am just starting to learn about this event and it seems absolutely incredible. Check out the website if you are at all interested in books or the publishing industry! I'm very excited to be signing advance-release copies of my book from 12:30 - 1:30 pm in the Author Autographing Area on Saturday May 30th -- come say hi if you'll be there!]

-> Book: The Courage to Give (Jackie Waldman) [I am grateful to know Jackie. She is even more unbelievably caring than any story can possibly portray. She volunteers her time to help select the recipients of CCC's college scholarship program. A little intro from Jackie's book website: "We all have something to give, no matter what. That's the courage-the courage to step out of our own lives, even when we think we can't, and step into the life of someone else. When we find the courage to give to someone else, sharing what we love to do and making a difference for someone else, that's when we can begin to live joyfully, no matter what." Jackie is also on Oprah's Angel Network, and has an article called, Begin with Yourself. I love how Jackie discusses volunteering as something that must begin within rather than an activity that is purely extrinsic. An unbelievable woman who is changing the world through her own experience with MS, her words, her books, and most importantly -- her personal actions.]

-> Mind + Body: Hip Tranquil Chic [I found Kimberly Wilson (i.e. the Hip Tranquil Chic) through twitter and just love her unique and fun approach to yoga and tranquility. SCARY! I promise I didn't know about this before just now -- check out who was featured yesterday on Kimberly's blog -- Featured Tranquilista: Christine Mason Miller! I feel like a stalker. Christine, I promise I am not stalking you! But if Christine is a tranquilista, then you gotta know it must be worthwhile to make a stop and read about the tranquil chic and how to become one.]

-> Creative: Are you creative? Answer: Yes. I would love your help! My non-profit, CCC, is creating a few fun designs and slogans to sell on apparell as a way to help increase donations (100% of every dollar donated goes to a scholarship). If you have any ideas or know someone with ideas, please let me know! You can learn more about the organization at our website and gain inspiration from there as well for different design ideas. But we want to do something a bit different than our normal image – so all ideas are welcome! Please just leave me a comment below and I’ll email you with more details (and yes there will be super thank you gifts from yours truly). CafePress has an abundance of ideas — but it can suck you in! Since I know nothing about the design world, I thought I would appeal to my design friends and readers :).

-> Care: What Gives?! [A social goodworking blog. Want to do more to help a cause, but not sure where to start? Have an idea and need support? Want to know about the cool stuff happening behind non-profit work? A community of supportive individuals who have questions -- just like you and me -- and want to do good and have fun at the same time.]

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InspirationFiles:

-> Wear: SocChic: Chic Necklaces Benefiting Social Causes. [Dream: one day CCC becomes "SocChic" -- a girl can dream! Update: The dream came true! Check out the Bright Side Necklace!]

-> Website: Lululemon [Definitely mentioned before (apologies for the repetition), but the website keeps getting better! Some favorite parts: goal setting, the community, manifesto, blog]

-> Visual: ColorSchemer [You don't need a big project to add fun colors to your life -- think: bullet points, document header, font color -- little pops of color in unexpected places do a lot to boost your mood]

-> Quoted: Marian Wright Edelman (see below) read this Shel Silverstein quote to conclude her speech:

Listen to the mustn’ts, child. Listen to the don’ts. Listen to the shouldn’ts, the impossibles, the won’ts. Listen to the never haves, then listen close to me… Anything can happen, child. Anything can be. – Shel Silverstein

-> Power of One: Marian Wright Edelman (President, Children’s Defense Fund) [Commencement Speaker at University Of Miami 2009 -- Best speech I have ever heard. Period. And now I can't find the speech online (oops). I'll find it and post an update. I found an excerpt of the speech, that you can peruse in the meantime. Additionally, you can read Marian Wright Edelman articles every Monday on the Huffington Post. My mom was so moved by the speech that she told Edelman that she was a better person just after hearing her talk. My mom was much more eloquent than that of course -- simply put: everyone was inspired by the commencement speech and the life's work of Marian Wright Edelman.]

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Bonus:

-> Featured in Post (Say Tweet!): @bookexpoamerica, @tranquilista, @cccscholarships, @jessconstable, @lululemon, @childdefender

-> Thank You Gift (from me to you): SocChic Necklace — Visit the website and let me know in the comments which necklace you love and why — it will be hard to pick one! I know this thank you gift is a bit buried, so I’ll remind you later in the week just in case! Comment by Tuesday May 26th at 10:00 pm EST. Please only one comment per family. Thank You! Winner will be announced by Wednesday May 27th at 10:00 pm EST right here!

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Information + Inspiration

April 20th, 2009 | 14 Comments »

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I am so excited to introduce a little treat that we can look forward to each Monday: Information + Inspiration.  I have wanted to add this new series for a bit so why wait any longer! I hope that you will join in and share what’s hiding in your secret little files!

Each Monday: Snippets of information and inspiration — no essays (I Promise!)

Information Files Room Service Home

InformationFiles:

–> Event: Simplify101 Organize Your Paper Clutter Online Workshop [Brand New Workshop! Starts Tuesday April 21st... and of course, I signed up weeks ago!]

–> Book: Every Monday Matters [Much more than a book: an entire online community and grass roots movement has started focused on the theme, You Matter]

–> Mind + Body: Making the Most of the Spring Mood Bounce

–> Creative: Kelly + Olive [Design Duo in Chicago who also do a ton of virtual decorating (check out this Apartment Therapy post) -- so if you live in Boston (or Australia), they can help you create a magical space with design boards and personalized tips. I just worked with them and and can't say enough positive things. They are talented beyond belief and so *incredibly* kind -- like sending me the sweetest email this past week out of the blue. They have a ton of different packages and are very affordable. Check them out!!]

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InspirationFiles:

–> Wear: “I Live and Love with My Whole Heart” Cuff by Uniq’leigh Allison [There is something very powerful about this cuff. I wear it everyday and look at it often to remind myself that, I Choose Authenticity (written on the inside of the cuff)]

–> Blog: Wonderful Friend and Artist Anne Harwell’s Blog, Annechovie

–> Words: “At the time, I had no sense that this would become a precious memory… but now it’s so vivid… and tinged with the sepia tones of nostalgia. Amazing what become printed in our hearts.” — Joshua Freedman

–> Visual: Violet Marsh Photography [Be prepared for visual stimulation overload -- seriously. After you look at the beautiful photos, you have to see Tanya's home featured on Apartment Therapy. Seriously -- gorgeous, bright, happy -- want to live there now! Tanya is the incredible photographer behind Violet Marsh Photography. Don't be too jealous, but I'm working with Tanya this weekend on some fun new photos!]

–> Power of One: Josh Sommer [To describe Josh, I would have to write an entire novel. I am so grateful to be a part of Josh's life. He is redefining the word "genius." I met Josh while at Duke and cherish our incredible friendship. I've mentioned his organization a ton on here, Chordoma Foundation. You can read this article/watch the video clip for a quick overview. He will leave you speechless. Oh, and keep in mind that Josh recently turned 21.]

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Bonus:

–> Mailing Label: Have you ever ripped a box apart just to cut off the mailing label? Well, I hadn’t until Thursday. I purchased the print, “Ignore the Rain Look for the Rainbow” from Studio Mela. The Label: Cutest image and then a tiny message printed on the bottom, “let me say thank you with my whole heart. i hope you love what’s inside because a nice person like you deserves a really big smile.” Not throwing away that label!

–> Journal Addiction: Incredible Gratitude Journal

Goals for the Week:

Me Time! Take a CoreFusion class at the zen, Exhale Spa and workout with Alissa on Thursday! [Note to Self: Need to get out of office chair to do both of these activities.]

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The Most FAQ: Why?

April 17th, 2009 | 6 Comments »

Since the age of 14, people have always asked me, “Why?” Every interview. About once a day by email.

Why did I start Carolyn’s Compassionate Children (CCC)? Why is it such a major part of my life? Why am I so passionate about supporting childhood and young adult cancer survivors? Why would I give up my own childhood for this cause?

For someone who thinks like a researcher, I never know how to answer these questions. I can’t give a million dollar response. After a lot of soul-searching, I’ve realized that the reason isn’t logical. It’s purely emotional. There are no hidden motives. I donate every dollar of spare change I have to my own organization and another organization just as close to my heart, the Chordoma Foundation. I do it because it’s the passion that wakes me up in the morning. I do it to honor the lives of children and friends, who lived a life far too short, and gave more in those years than I could ever hope to give. I do it because any child who lives their life in a hospital fighting for a 5% chance to live should never have to fear that the cost of their survival could mean the poverty of their family — no chance of higher education.

I wrote this post because I wanted to let you know that the art auction for my organization has started on Ebay Giving Works. I was going to insert a graphic image, but I couldn’t. It felt too commercial for something that is so very personal. I didn’t realize how hard this time of the year would be. My best friend, Matt, whom I’ve mentioned many times on here before would be turning 25 next week. I remember his birthday last year so vividly because it was about two weeks before he passed away. It’s fitting that this fundraiser is very personal as it marks such a transition in my life. I am so thankful for the support of the individuals who have given to this auction so wholeheartedly. It is my first auction of any kind and has turned into a truly beautiful event.

On that note, I hope you enjoy the unique collection within this auction fundraiser. The event ends April 24, 2009.

In Memory of Matt

… in memory of matt

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Sitting, Waiting, Wishing: 10 Sources of Inspiration

April 14th, 2009 | 21 Comments »

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… image via kristybee on etsy

Do you have tools that you rely on for inspiration? Whether you want to write a private journal entry or a public blog post, how do you get inspired?

While waiting for that moment of creative genius to hit and for this blog post to spill onto paper, I became aware of “inspiration mode.” I never consciously realized this mode before today. I think this mode is actually pretty common. It’s the lull filled with things that make you happy – make you feel creative and inspired – and of course, make you feel ready to conquer the world!

I had planned to write about something a bit more structured today: inspiration boards. I won’t be talking about “inspiration boards” directly today, but I want to talk about “inspiration” in general, which is a great introduction to the topic of inspiration boards. I suppose this is a more natural beginning for a series of posts on inspiration boards. In order to begin discussing the broad topic of inspiration boards, one must have a good handle on general inspiration, which differs for each individual. So today, I am going to discuss 10 sources of inspiration that I personally use over and over again.

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The Basics:
What is inspiration?
(Noun) The process of being mentally stimulated to do or feel something, especially to do something creative. [Oxford American Dictionary]
Ponder this question, what does inspiration mean to you?
Need some help: check out this great online resource – Creative Something: Inspiring your Creativity. One Idea at a Time.

I define inspiration in terms of the energy I get from a source. Is it positive or negative? Is it creative energy? Is it motivating… and so on? That is how I start. What do I gravitate towards (rather than away)? What do I enjoy and feel almost guilty for doing? It’s in these sources that I typically feel less cognitive strain and more creative thinking. It feels good. It feels fun. It doesn’t feel like work!

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While, sitting, waiting, and wishing…

1)    Music. Quick Burst of Inspiration.
Create short playlists (about 5 songs) that you can listen to for a quick burst of inspiration. You may want to create different types of playlists for different types of inspiration. Do you need a song that makes you feel like writing, like working out, like focusing… and so on. Create a playlist that lasts approximately 15 minutes that you have ready to listen to whenever needed.

I am loving Susannah Conway’s playlists on her blog, Ink on my Fingers.

2)    Quotes. Words that Define your Mood.

Quotes are a fantastic source of inspiration; in particular, quotes that you refer to over and over again – the ones that are memorized and repeated multiple times a day. I usually find quotes organically while reading a book or an article. They jump out at me. I usually relate with the feeling that the quote describes or feel inspired by the words themselves.   And then they stick. If you tend to love quotes, but don’t have a way of keeping track of them see below for a few ideas.Margaret and Walter File

  • Write quotes in a little journal or notebook — designate an entire notebook to quotes or just a few pages of your daily planning notebook. It doesn’t need to be super organized — just nice to have them in one spot to locate later.
  • Put quotes up on an inspiration board. I put up my most frequently used quotes.
  • Store quotes in text documents according to different categories (e.g., books, moods, or any other categorization method).
  • Store quotes in an old-fashioned Rolodex. I recently started to do this and love the flexibility of having this paper method. I jot down new quotes on a little piece of paper and add them into my file. The Rolodex I use is super cute, which makes it more approachable (rather than a paper system that I will quickly abandon).

3)    Photos. Images that tell a Breathtaking Story.

Posy (Susannah Conway, 2008)

… “Posy” by Susannah Conway (2008) …

Photography is a beautiful source of inspiration – looking at photos and/or taking your own photos. I find wonderful photographs through flickr and etsy. My favorite photographs are by Susannah Conway. Susannah writes, “Each of my photographs is my attempt to unravel the world around me, to see the beauty in all things.”   Other incredible photographers with online portfolios to browse: Alicia Bock, Jennifer Causey, Yvette Inufio, Honeytree, and of course, Danielle Anthony!

You can look at photos online and/or order prints from individual photographers to create your own inspiring collection.

4)    Journaling. Otherwise known as Writing Therapy.
I recently started keeping a personal journal. I didn’t realize the therapeutic benefits of journaling until I started my own. I typically journal before I go to sleep about whatever is on my mind at the time. Some of my best ideas are jotted down in that journal. It’s where I keep those random ideas for “someday.” Little diagrams of how I see an idea evolving or the steps needed to make an idea concrete. I stick magazine clippings into it as well – so it’s a whole big journal of personal thoughts and ideas that have sparked creative energy within me.

5)    An Inspiration Board. Make me Happy!

Make me Happy! Inspiration Board

… image of my first inspiration board, Make Me Happy!

This inspiration board is on the wall above my desk. It was my *first* inspiration board. It sat for about a month with a single post-it note in the center that says: Make Me Happy! I wanted a board that “made me happy.” And so that is how I started — my first creative venture. I’m starting my third inspiration board now on a different theme: A Beautiful Ripple Effect! I’m having a ton of fun brainstorming ideas for it and creating different projects. It’s a blank canvas and a wonderful source of inspiration. I also create mini inspiration boards for my mini personal organizer — love the idea of a portable inspiration board! It contains quotes, images, thoughts, and goals.

6)   Books. A Treasury of Inspiring Words.

I have a collection of about 15 books that I keep in my office all together. I have read these books multiple times and refer to them over and over again for inspiration. I have them close by and can always find exactly what I need in one of them. Some of the books include: I Thought it was Just Me (but it isn’t) by Brene Brown, Ordinary Sparkling Moments by Christine Mason Miller, The Organized and Inspired Scrapbooker by Aby Garvey, The Power of Less by Leo Babauta, Domino: The Book of Decorating, Presentation Zen: Simple Ideas on Presentation Design and Delivery by Garr Reynolds, Mindfulness by Ellen Langer and other inspiring reads.

7)  Blogs by Inspiring Bloggers/Writers. Simple Bites of Inspiration.

I may be biased, but I find blogs to be a great source of inspiration. In particular, I love blogs with a personal touch — typos, humor, less than perfect grammar, real world examples, and so on. Sometimes I need a blog with very few words (eye candy blogs), but most of the time I’m looking for inspiring articles to give me that creative edge. Reading a blog article is much more than just reading — you are given the key to a community of other readers interested in the same material. Within the comments, you can often find even more inspiration and community chit chat.

Some of my favorite blogs include: When I Grow Up, UpUp Creative, Decor8, Real Simple: Simply Stated, Treasuring, Made by Girl, Creative Thursday, Christine Mason Miller, Makeunder My Life, Annechovie, Creative Organizing, Melissa Loves, Ink on my Fingers, Ordinary Courage, Think Simple Now, Write to Done, and Zen Habits.

8)    Anything Family. And that includes Ben and Lila Rose!

Just thinking about my family and how much we love each other leaves me feeling incredibly happy, creative (and inspired)! I’m also inspired by how much each member of my family has done — from the little stuff to the really really big stuff. I’m proud of my mom, my dad, my sister, and my brother. We are all so different yet so driven to reach our dreams. Whenever I feel like something is too big for me to do, I think about what my parents did on their own. I know their story — and I know that at the end of the day being parents was their top priority. They taught me that you can do it all. It’s hard, but it’s possible. I could ramble on and on about them — that’s what it feels like (for me) to be inspired.

9)    A Beautiful Ripple Effect. Inspiration grows stronger as it is linked from one individual to another.

How can I describe this source of inspiration without the quote by Christine Mason Miller — not possible! I think I share this quote about every other post or so — have you memorized it yet?

A Beautiful Ripple Effect (Christine Mason Miller)

10)  Care. Commit. Change.® Inspired by others who care about a cause and commit to creating change.

Which artists are committed to creating change? Who inspires me? Well, I created an event just to answer this question! And it began TODAY!!! So exciting!! We already have 700 applicants for our scholarship program this year – which is the largest applicant pool we’ve had ever – and probably the largest applicant pool for college scholarships for young adult cancer survivors (anywhere) so we are hoping that this online auction will help us support these individuals in their quest to go to college.

Why support young adult cancer survivors when everyone is feeling the strain of the economy? Take that strain being felt by everyone and multiply it by at least 10. And that is what is felt by young adult cancer survivors, many are hundreds of thousands of dollars in medical debt. College is not a possibility — ever. We are changing that through our college scholarship program and by providing *hope* that people (like you and me) believe in them. Should the cost of surviving cancer be the loss of a college education? Absolutely not. Help me — Help them. The auction will end on Friday April 24th. 100% of every dollar donated (every dollar used to purchase an item in this auction) will go directly towards a college scholarship for a young adult cancer survivor. [Update: Auction is complete. Thank you!]

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Learning to Let Go: One Life Altering Step at a Time

April 6th, 2009 | 16 Comments »

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{image by Betsy Walton on Etsy}

I have been struggling to identify what I am currently experiencing. I still can’t fully articulate the emotions — they seem to continuously transform. I’ve definitely felt a bit lost like I didn’t really know where I was going. I attributed these feelings to my unique situation at this point in time: navigating the first year of graduate school, watching CCC grow tremendously, and heading to the finish line with my book. Note to self: never tell anyone that this is easy or even manageable — it’s not.

Over the past year or so, I’ve been letting go of a lot without even consciously realizing. It started with CCC. For nine years, it was just me behind CCC. To let go of that complete control felt like I was losing part of myself. It was a difficult and very emotional process, but very much worthwhile. I never could have imagined how much CCC could grow in less than a year — truly amazing. But letting go meant losing part of my identity. It encompassed so much of my life that I didn’t know who I was without its dominance. Looking back, I would never change my decision. It allowed CCC to grow and allowed me to begin the process of learning about myself.

Then, I entered graduate school. Simply stated, my expectations were very much off base. During my first year, I have had to let go of another major part of my identity: being a perfect student. I quickly learned that perfection didn’t exist in the real world and that I had to become the keeper of my self-worth or it would quickly demolish. I have to use every morsel of my will power to remain realistic and not judge myself in relation to others. As my mom (my incredibly brilliant mom) told me in high school, I must put up my blinders and remain focused on my path. Very powerful advice.

Now, back to the struggle I am currently experiencing. Last night, I started reading The Journals of John Cheever. The book contains the personal journals of one of the greatest writers of the 20th century, John Cheever. These journal entries were private and published only after Cheever’s death (his wishes). While reading the introduction by Cheever’s son, I had an “aha!” moment. What I am experiencing started to make a bit more sense.

Below is an excerpt from the introduction:

“The journals were not initiated with publication in mind. They were the workbooks for his fiction. They were also the workbooks for his life….
We talked a lot. He wanted to talk about the journals….
He wondered aloud to me if his journals had any value as a document. He asked me repeatedly what I thought. I said I didn’t know….
Then one night in January, he presented me with one of the notebooks. He asked if I would mind looking at it.

We were in the dining room. I sat in a chair and read from the journal he had given me. He sat in another chair and watched. He asked what I thought. I said I thought that the journal was interesting; I thought it beautifully written. He asked me to read some more. I did read some more. At one point I looked up, and I could see that he was crying. He was not sobbing, but tears were running down his cheeks. I didn’t say anything. I went back to reading. When I looked up again, he seemed composed….

The subject came up quite a few more times in the weeks that followed. He kept asking if I really thought there would be interest. I kept saying there would be.”

Like Cheever, when I started writing, I never thought that what I was writing would be published. This mindset stuck throughout the writing of the book — all four years. The content was so personal that I was living the story as I told it. There was so much work involved and thousands of steps over the course of years that the “end” was never something I actually thought about. But reality has finally hit me that publication is very close. The book is out of my hands. Galleys have gone out and that is extremely scary. A blog post by Ann Leary describes the feelings and thoughts that often accompany authors at this stage of pre-publication. An excerpt from that post is below:

“Okay, so despite the breezy blog posts, I’ve actually been in a state of gut-wrenching anxiety about my forthcoming novel and how it will be received by, well, everybody. Sarah Breivogel, my book’s publicist, sent galleys out to reviewers and magazine editors many weeks ago and then she followed up with emails and letters. The response to my book’s announcement was …nothing. I understood this response to be, not an oversight, not an indication of how beleaguered-by-galleys magazine editors are. No, I knew it for what it was – an astounded, appalled silence. I imagined reviewers staring at the bound galleys in horror, thinking, Denis Leary’s wife tried to write what? A novel? You’ve got to be kidding me! I envisioned them trying to slog their way through the first chapters before finally giving up and writing their one-word review: ‘Unreadable!’ and tossing it into the rubbish bin.”

I just started to put these pieces together this past weekend and have realized my diagnosis: pre-publication anxiety (and no that’s not a real disorder!). As usual, I asked my favorite question, now what? And it finally hit me, I need to let go. Let go of control… let go of unrealistic expectations… and just let the book take it’s natural course.

I can only focus on what is real — what this book means to me and not let its value be determined by others. Just getting to this point in the process is a tremendous accomplishment for everyone involved. It’s like a wedding reception — even if everything goes wrong — at the end of the night… there are still two people madly in love. Nothing can take that away. Similarly, nothing can take away the journey that united me with 20 individuals who forever changed my life. The lessons I learned from each of them will remain in tact and the value of the experience cannot be diminished. At the end of the day, one powerful element always remains: hope.

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Below are links to two very short video clips about “hope” on the ABC show, Brothers and Sisters. Nora, the mother played by Sally Field, learns that the mother of a child with a very difficult to treat form of cancer, never gave up hope — and ultimately, the daughter went into remission. This hope struck Nora and is illustrated in the following two clips:

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Are you still learning to let go? What helps you when “letting go?”

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An Inspired Event

March 22nd, 2009 | 3 Comments »

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I am so excited to finally announce, “An Inspired Event!”

An Event Inspired by the Beautiful Ripple Effect: A Unique Charity Auction

Please check out the special section of this blog dedicated to the event where you’ll be able to watch for updates and new details!

[Update: event information no longer available on site]

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Beautiful Monday

March 9th, 2009 | 4 Comments »

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I’m excited for a wonderful, busy week! I am almost done with my Monday Inspiration post, but technically it will be posted on Tuesday [Update: Crazy week but will be posting soon]!

We have one giveaway day remaining — the finale! And I still have a wonderful announcement to come.

I get to see my friend Josh this week — so exciting! He just arrived in Boston from North Carolina. One conversation with him leaves me inspired for at least a full month!

And today I got to talk to Maria Stephanos on Boston’s Fox News about young adult cancer survivors and college scholarships. I had never been to their studio. Wow! It is gorgeous. And the people are so kind and gracious. A big thank you to Melanie Nye, the segment producer, and all around wonderful person! It was a remarkable experience. I can’t wait to (hopefully) visit again.

I hope you had a wonderful Monday!

Wishing you a beautiful week,

Carolyn

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Sharing

January 19th, 2009 | 4 Comments »

As I mentioned in my last post, I am going to start sharing the “other” side of my life.

Questions/Thoughts you may be having (or maybe I’m having!):

Q: Why would she share this information on the blog? Boring!

I never really share this information because it’s the opposite of boring! I can reflect now on my past experiences and realize that I have done some pretty powerful stuff and learned more than I could have ever imagined. I don’t have a standard bio that puts the pieces into a nice little box. I’m okay with that. Read this blog description, “About Me,” from Brené Brown’s blog, Ordinary Courage.

I’m still trying to figure out who I am and why I feel the way I do about cancer advocacy. Hopefully, through this blog, I (we) will start to see the big picture and establish a bit more clarity. But I do believe the journey and “ripple effect” is an incredible place to be.

Q: I’m confused what’s this blog about?

I’m sure over time the blog will establish a cohesive theme; however, I am dedicated to keeping it authentic and about everyday life. My life will be evolving over the next few months so it will be wonderful for this blog to serve as an outlet for my voice. Some topics I plan to write about:

  • identity: confusion, authenticity, perfectionism, failure, inspiration
  • establishing balance and juggling unique demands
  • grad school: long list :)
  • running a non-profit organization
  • publishing a book
  • creating a beautiful ripple effect

So let the blogging begin!

Sneak Peek at my Author Q & A — a snippet of a response. Below the Q & A, I posted a video of my first tv interview about CCC. It’s so strange to see myself talk about CCC at 15!

Question centers on the beginning of my involvement with young people who have cancer.

It all started at Camp Sunshine, a camp for children with life-changing illnesses, located in Casco, Maine. I was six years old at the time of my first visit. I can’t say I really remember a thing from that visit; however, the experience planted something within me – possibly just a curiosity for the unknown. I’m not sure. At fourteen years old, I went back to the camp without my parents. I remember this visit vividly. I was there for about seven days and spent each day with kids my own age who had cancer. My little world was rattled. I had never thought about depression, isolation, or death—especially not as things that kids could experience. I thought childhood was a period of no worries. Over that week, I became friends with kids my own age who were so different than my peers. They thought about death. Many were going through depression and isolation. And yet, they were grateful for what remained of their lives and hopeful that they could make a difference in the world with whatever time they had. And they did!  Each kid I met changed my perspective on life forever. I came home and returned to “normal” life. But I couldn’t turn my back on what I had experienced. I questioned myself over and over (and still do)—why not me? I wanted to take the burden off of these incredible people. I wanted to help. And so, I decided to start writing letters to kids I met at the camp. I hoped to help the kids feel more connected to the outside world – and not feel so isolated within the hospital walls. About a year later, I formed a pen pal program called Carolyn’s Compassionate Children to continue my quest to help children battling cancer. My overall goal: help these children realize that they are not alone and have friends rooting for them. And so, for the past 10 years, I have been “involved” with young people who have cancer.

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Livestrong Give 100… Thankful and Honored

January 18th, 2009 | 3 Comments »

No words can even begin to describe what it felt like to see my name on the Livestrong Give 100% Page. I had no idea that this contest existed or that I had been nominated. I don’t think I’ve ever been a “finalist” for anything in my life! I’m still in SHOCK.

It’s always interesting to see my story. It hasn’t felt like a story or time spent giving– it’s my life. I have followed my natural instincts and have done what I felt passionate about. I am incredibly fortunate to have been in the position to do this my entire life. My family has supported me the entire way and helped me through the bumps and storms.

Who would be the most excited about this? My best friend, Matt! Mr. Livestrong himself :). He always wore his yellow Livestrong bracelet and embodied everything that the Lance Armstrong Foundation is built upon — I so wish he could be here now.

So now I’m going to start sharing on my blog the other part of my life that I don’t tell anyone about. It’s because of these incredible people that I am driven to do everything in my power to help.

They have taught me that now is everything.

Livestrong Give 100

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